Everything I am.

2007-03-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

i wish life would just come to a standstill,
like how pictures capture the intricate scenes.
so that i wouldn't have to face this much crap,
and let my mind put up with these multifarious thoughts.

i'm tired, and everything's going wrong.
but i need to do away with this distraction,
just tell me you don't feel anything,
and i'll be averting my attention with ease.

2007-03-22T00:03:00.001+08:00

the past few days have been hectic,
i'm still feeling terribly tired out.

i shouldn't think so much,
it's only a matter of time.

only you can make my song take flight.

2007-03-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

my face is a pimple ~~wonder~~land,
i'm so freaking tired from a bad sleep,
i broke down two days ago,

yet i still can't seem to step out of this crazy thing.

don't write me off just yet.

2007-03-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

this is my angel, HAHA <3

i snack when i'm troubled,
and i've been snacking alot.
the coated peas were so darn salty,
now my lips are starting to feel funny.

anyway phantom of the opera's showing tonight,
and i'm gonna chope the teevee,
even though i've watched it a million times.
:D

and not just national art museum,
i wanna go walk cathay,
and plaza's MADE WITH LOVE.
someone please offer to buy me time.

if men are from mars,
and women are from venus,
maybe that's why i can't read your mind.

i'll wait a lifetime.

2007-03-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

i keep holding on to something that hurts.
someone drill it into my head please,
you can't lose what you never had.

next stop, s'pore art museum!
hopefully next saturday (:
we're seriously going places.

there's got to be something for my soul somewhere.

2007-03-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

photos (:

our birthday ~~girl~~ WOMAN.
forever smiling please, hahaha (:

my beloved class.
can't live without them :D

the more i can't live without these people.
my faaaavourite girls :D :D :D

2007-03-15T09:58:00.000+08:00

went to paint boxes for sl project yesterday,
i was yawning away, but having fun (:
the guys were so emo, please.
they were all painting hearts LOL.

&emo picture of the day.

i've been setting aside time,
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

2007-03-13T13:58:00.000+08:00

byebye faculty tests :D
hello to more mugging,
and more choir pracs.

but i'm staying home today,
to nurse a back full of bruises,
all thanks to bbq yesterday.
i couldn't sleep properly,
nor walk properly.

HAHA, but i had truckloads of fun :D
someone send me pictures please?
&happy eighteenth, michelle! (:

and presenting the one who wore a PUREMILK shirt.
quoting umairah, "HAHAHAHA thats so hilmi."
:D

i could use some direction.

2007-03-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

one two three.

i'm going to mug today with someone lovely.
i'm going to mug with shiyun :D
we're just so damn lesbo, please.

i am determined to pass my maths fac test!
so that ms tan won't hafta see my mom.

majulah muggers! <3

anyway after days of junk food,
my throat has surrendered.
food shouldn't be therapy.

i wanna watch in pursuit of happyness,
any takers?

could this be for real?
i think i love you.

2007-03-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

forever wasn't as simple as i thought.

now i'm starting to feel dumb,
or maybe i was dumb all along.

but i can't seem to step out of it.

~~fall, falling, fell, fallen.~~
ughh, everything's in a whirl.

2007-03-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

i'm talking about forever.

and i'm not gonna be emo.
only math fac test left!
please let me do well.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! :D

you can have my heart.
NAAAAAAHH!

i'll pray for you tonight.

2007-03-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

my toes were stepped on today.

don't keep trying to meddle with my life.
i know myself better than you know me.

buzz off, bugger.

i've been told to say hello to love,
so hello there, love.
are you here to stay or just to play?

'cos i don't wanna trip and fall,
if you're just here for thrill.

so why am i already lying on the ground?

2007-03-04T11:15:00.001+08:00

my cousin got married on thursday (:

shiyun and i got ourselves lost in kampong glam,
found dilapidated housing, small doors, back alleys all.
the shop selling all vintage was way cool.
we're so gonna get lost somewhere else, soon :D

went to gloria's house to watch a bit of soccer,
bought her a pack of heartshaped cookies from muji.
:D

while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
i hope you know somebody loves you.

2007-03-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to suspect,
that i'm just a small girl in a big world.
like a dust speck on the pavement,
unnoticeable, insignificant, unimportant.

i can't help but keep messing up,
but why does it all happen to me?
i couldn't help but cry at that instant,
nothing but disappointment.

AAAAHHHHHHHHH, EMO EMO.

2007-03-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

the clock's stopped.

i keep tossing and turning at night,
before i finally fall asleep.

someone please explain to me,
why i keep thinking.

so close and yet so far.

2007-02-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

i slept at 2AM,
i couldn't concentrate today,
i kept picturing lalaland.

but anything beats tears.

they say time flies,
and soon it'll all be over.
i think gravity's working extra on the hands of my clock,
'cos i can't seem to get over what's past.

AAAHHH,
feesh, i'm all emo.

2007-02-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

"some are running scared,
some are coming home,
some tell lies to make it through the day,
others are just not facing the truth.
some are evil men at war with good,
some are good struggling with evil.
6 billion people in the world,
6 billion souls,

and sometimes..
all you need is 1."

- one tree hill

2007-02-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

keeping silent is not my forte.
why is everything so confusing?

2007-02-21T19:48:00.001+08:00

i wish i could just tell you the truth,
it's hard just keeping it to myself.

unlike any other.

2007-02-17T11:03:00.001+08:00

messed up my econs test,
what a way to start the eve of the eve of CNY.
heh, but nonetheless yesterday was another good day.

had lessons & celebrations in school,
then town-ed with yurong and umairah (:

happy chinese new year's eve, lovelies! (:
may you get loads & loads of angpaos,
and enjoy the long weekend!

maybe that's why i was so stubborn about it all along.

2007-02-15T17:12:00.001+08:00

this valentine's, as the other eighteen years,
was spent with no significant other.
but we were high nonetheless :D

i love my classmates truckloads.
who ever said you can't spend valentine's,
with 12 girls and 11 guys? HAHA <333

may all your dreams stay big,
and your worries stay small.

2007-02-12T20:23:00.001+08:00

cjc, nyjc, tpjc.

met the both of them today.
another smile to my collection (:

ikea once more.

vivian has been a love,
so here's a shout out from yours truly (:

goh zhiyi, i miss you like shit.
and i know you miss me too, DON'T BLUFF (:

show me a smile then.
don't be unhappy.
can't remember when i last saw you laughing.
if this one makes you crazy,
and you taking all you can bear.
you call me up because you know i'll be there.
and i see your true colours shining through.
i see your true colours and that's why i love you.
so don't be afraid to let them show.
you're beautiful like a rainbow.

2007-02-11T12:36:00.002+08:00

i told you the week was worth smiling for (:
after road run, we went to parkway for lunch.

walked around with vivian (:
and we found this pretty card.

ikea with viv yesterday :D

see, i told you this week was good! :D

heartheartheart.

2007-02-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

bottling's starting to hurt.

that aside, this week was a week worth smiling for.
went back to sac on monday with val,
met our old teachers (:
i wish i were back in sac, really.

ate at lerkthai with viv and henry,
and i finally found what i wanted to find (:
after much dismay that it was no longer at tm.

we ran only two rounds for spe (:
learning journey to parliament house yesterday,
my class never fails to have this much fun together (:

someone brightened my day today (:
~~even though i'm not feeling well.~~
hearts.

if you're faced with the choice and you had to choose,
i hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

2007-02-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

went tiong bahru plaza to jalan today.

all that shiznit about valentine's day is driving me nuts.
i'd rather live in a black and white world,
where there'd be nothing to worry about,
and love wouldn't even have a space in my thoughts.

this is how the rough track divides,
it's all up to me, myself to decide.
teach me a way that i can choose,
for there's no turning back, but alot to lose.

2007-02-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

the past few days have been aye-okay.

in short, pictures paint a thousand words.
i love all these people, with all my heart (:

and this is my current favourite advert :D

and again, i pretend i'm okay.
but that's not what gets me.

2007-01-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

the vocal consort (:

fi and val (:

fiji (:

consort concert was really, really, really good,
and definitely worth my ticket money :D
i'm so looking forward to their next concert.

that aside, i felt awfully shitty today,
tomorrow will be a better, brighter day.
and i will ~~try not to~~ not think so much.

you're beautiful, like a rainbow.

2007-01-28T10:37:00.000+08:00

consort concert later at esplanade!
meeting olivia before everything,
and then SECTION DINNER :D
we're hardly ever so enthusiastic.
but it's a good start, to begin with!

elvis has left the building.

2007-01-27T12:13:00.000+08:00

be my summer sweetheart,
one my heart would cry for.

let's just say,
you wouldn't understand.

well, neither do i.

2007-01-21T11:51:00.000+08:00

it's not that i don't love you anymore,
i just don't want to hurt you any longer.
i tried to be perfect, but it wasn't enough.
i can't do much but say i'm sorry.

i love you, is that okay?

<3

2007-01-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

viv and i walked around in this,
for the whole day yesterday.
with self-explanatory evidence,
school is driving us C-R-AZY.

there's nothing you can say,
nothing you can do,
when it comes to the truth.
so keep holding on.

2007-01-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE LOVES LT 1.
while we were doing our gp topical test,
it blacked out FIVE times.

when the lights went out,
my brain shut down too.
aiping violated me with her umbrella before the test,
THANKS HUHHHH.

ohh, and dumb shit.
my phone was giving me problems,
so now i'm stuck using 7250i.
I'M SO MODERN.

2007-01-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a mad start-of-school (:

2007-01-11T19:46:00.000+08:00

sco, december 2006
(:

2007-01-06T12:45:00.000+08:00

my verdict,
i hate 2007 already.
i don't know why.
i just have a bad feeling.

behind one reason, lies another.

2007-01-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

HERE'S A TOAST!
to a brand new start,
to a brand new year.

2006 was good and bad,
great times all year round,
but rocky moments between.

2007's time to iron these out,
to smoothen the creases,
to neaten the oh so messy.

happy new year, darlings (:

<3

2006-12-25T13:28:00.000+08:00

dear (fill in your name here),

and a smashin' new year!
(:

yes, this post is meant for everyone.

love, jill

2006-12-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

3 EPISCIA (:

i just had to upload this photo.
yeah yeah, spot me if you must.
:p

but ask me for the bigger version,
unless you have super-vision,
and you can recognise those teeny faces.

ten years of being an SACian.
i can't believe i lasted that long.
i'm a SURVIVOR!
okay, i'm exaggerating.
SAC was a wonderful place i grew up in.

I MISS BEING A KID.

yes, siti and val,
i have officially updated my blog.
:p

2006-12-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

qian'er (:

went to concourse yesterday to get deco.
the things there are kinda cute!
but they're not exactly cheap, though.

anyway, i'm so dead.
i haven't done my homework!
time to start, lazyshits.
i'm talking to myself, forgive me.

pae auditions tomorrow!
i hope heaps of people turn up.
we could use the numbers.

sooooo sweet.
FREE HUGS.
anyone?
(:

"but things can't be perfect all the time, that i know.
sometimes we just have to let some things go."
- kind of perfect, armor for sleep

2006-12-16T12:58:00.000+08:00

sco's finally over!
i've never stood that long in court shoes before.
i think my toes died.
but the busy ~~days~~ nights are gone!

BUT the best part was,
meeting and singing with all the new people (:
even though it was a little late.
and it's been two years since i last saw melanie.

supper at simpang,
i'm gonna grow so fat i'll burst.
not like i already am not,
but the consecutive suppers are making it worse.

WOOHOO,
FATS GALORE.

all i said and done,
what's left is to know,
whatever there is to find out.
THANKS LOVE <3

2006-12-14T11:29:00.000+08:00

zhiyi (:

lunch with claire yesterday!
then olivia and eunice came over.
did some pretty photoshop-ing.
then met fiona for dinner at sakae.

supper with fiona and lynette after practice,
THEN IT STARTED TO POUR.
so fi took out her weapon,
THE UMBRELLA.
and hooked it it to her bag,
to protect our backs from getting wet.

HAHA.

<3

it's easy for you to say,
but here i am,
not understanding a thing.
can i not lose this?

2006-12-13T12:54:00.000+08:00

saturday was my dad's birthday (:

so we surprised him with a cake!

then yesterday was jannagiamqianer's birthday!

first, i surprised her with a muffin at midnight.
and that's my mom's present for her it's sitting on, btw.

then to shashlik's for dinner.
~~the food took so long to come!~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAN'ER!

powerpuff cake :p

and now, i'm off to meet claire!
:D

lord, hear my prayer.

2006-12-11T13:50:00.000+08:00

nigra sum sed formosa,
plaisir de chanson 2006

(:
those were the times the sound was fuller.
i apologise for reminiscing the past.
but i just couldn't help it.
i can't wait for next year's concert!

ooyeh, babeh.
syf first.

on a cheerful note,
i've made an achievement!
i know i'm no good in the kitchen,
but HEY, i peeled and cut potatoes today!

HEARTIFUL<3

2006-12-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

THE LOVES ARE HOME!
waited for them in school on thursday.
then had dinner at 201 with updates.
fiona, juls, lynette, chinsoon, henry, keesiang.

i missed them like crazy ):
AND LYNETTE WANTS TO EAT MUFFIN.
muffin's my hamster, btw.
AAAAHHHH, lol.

sukiyaki setting; solid fuel
i think it looks more like poo.

dinner at sakae yesterday.
:D
i'm sorry i ate half your food.
i gave you half of mine!

HEART.

2006-12-07T09:48:00.000+08:00

paper heart please understand,
model planes and rubberbands,
wound too tight my heart could snap in two.

paper hearts and memories,
broken notes in melodies,
decorate my mind in black and blue.

<3

please come home, quick.

2006-12-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

you opened my eyes,
and showed me how to love unselfishly.
i've dreamed of this a thousand times before,
in my dreams i couldn't love you more.

i will give you my heart until the end of time,
you're all i need, my love, my valentine.

<3

i've been eating peanut butter bread all day long,
i think i'm going to grow fat! ):
i'm counting down to tomorrow.
when all my loves return home.

2006-12-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

i love you, is that okay?

they're coming back tomorrow!
and i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait.
:D
ohmygod i'm bored the shits outta me.

i know i've said it before,
but seriously, i'm dying here.
i'm going crrraaazzyyy, babeh.

i needa do some shopping badly.
AAAHH!

2006-12-05T19:02:00.001+08:00

even if the sun refused to shine,
even if romance ran out of rhyme,
you would still have my heart,
until the end of time.
you're all i need,
my love, my valentine.

<3

i miss everyone!
especially juls, fiona, val, zhiyi.
especially you.

please come back soon, ya'll ):
i'm bored the shits out of me.
being stuck at home isn't all that great,
i really wish i was there with ya'll.

on a lighter note, i changed my layout!
it's been awhile since we've seen white.
and i think it's pretty neat to begin with (:
alright i'll shut up, it's not that great.

EHH, NO MEH? :p

2006-12-04T17:18:00.000+08:00

love,
i'll be your ragdoll.
for you to do whatever.
and sit by your side,
just watching you sleep.

my sun may never rise again,
the way it did with you.

<3

2006-12-03T14:16:00.000+08:00

the days of high fever, vomitting and giddy-ing are FINALLY over.

and, i haaaaaate the hospital.
i'm going to drink truckloads of water from now on!
it's horrible having to be put on drip.
AND BEING POKED BY TEN NEEDLES.

i counted all blood tests and all.
today they couldn't find my vein,
so the nurse poked me like 4 times at 7AM.
if it wasn't painful to me, i'm not human.

MANY LOVES those who sms-ed me, called me and visited me!
<333
and for the forum thread (:
never knew i had so many people around me who cared <3

anyhoos, they're going to malacca without me ):
but i really hope they perform well.
THEY WILL LA :D
just bring back lotsa goodies for me okay :p

all i can do is question my heart.

2006-11-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

prelude to advent today (:
the best part was seeing our juniors,
of which half we didn't recognise :p
that means we're growing old!

here's the combined choir.
who performed siyahamba as their encore piece :D
dang, it was so sac with all the stomping.
tell me, who doesn't miss those days?

anyways everyone's gonna kill me,
because we went for lunch at New York New York before that,
but i kinda deleted the group picture by accident.
i know, kill me now if you'd, please.

sure it was a better, brighter day.
but the weather's so cold i think i'm falling sick.
i shall sleep ultra early tonight,
after i eat the ice jelly my mom bought.

CHOIR TOMORROW! :D
i admit i really miss the year twos.
31st may, i'll never forget.
those were the days i'll definitely miss.

2006-11-25T18:06:00.000+08:00

parkway for lunch after sco with a big bunch.
i bought a small pooh plushie, heh!
anyways company on 12 was good (:
juls and i played photo hunt!

but as i was walking home,
those brown husk thingers dropped from the palm tree,
and landed right in front of me with a huge thud.
great indication of something ehh.
i think my days are numbered, like seriously.

then for an hour, juls and i were videocalling.
click HERE and HERE to see (:
the fun lasted 'till daryl woke up to maple.

tomorrow will be a better, brighter day!

i'm praying this doesn't get any deeper.

2006-11-24T11:05:00.000+08:00

life's not a fairytale,
but it doesn't end here.
(:

on a lighter, brighter note,
ex-choristers are going for concert (:
can't wait to see familiar faces,
and hear how our choir sounds now.

and i had the weirdest dream ever.
i dreamt of loads of tiny spiders,
in my clothes, biting me!
and i vividly remember them attacking my ass ):

i'm so gross, but who cares.
it was still scary alright.

and ohh yes,
life only begins when you're 60 (:

2006-11-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

it all happened because i was stubborn.
it all happened because i didn't know what to do.
it all happened because i was lost.
it all happened because i was wrong.
it all happened because i was stupid.
it all happened because i was not thinking.
it all happened because i thought wrong.
it all happened because i did what i did.
it all happened, because of me.
<3 don't let this be our last goodbye.

2006-11-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy,
And I'd be the best friend that you'd fall in love with in the end.
We'd be laughing, watching the sunset,
Fade to black, show the names, play the happy song.
i love you, and always will.

2006-11-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

umairah gave ME good news! :D

pssst
you heard?
?
what thing?
(:
ms tan say the accessors say our slides very good so they're using it as samples for next year batch!!
(:
HAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they like it alot. LIKE YEAHH
hahaha
OHHHHH MYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like ahhh YOU SURE US
hahahaha
(:
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!

and omg was all i could say :D
our hard work surely did pay off, heh!

2006-11-14T14:31:00.000+08:00

i missed my monday post!
~~ohmy,oopsie~~ OMG BIMBO.
but time to party, babes!
anyone wanna date me?
:D

finally, it's all over.
the grueling project work term,
the dreadful mother tongue.
hey, no more chinese for life!
:D

so many smileys, ehehh.
butts back to singing, poops.
time for hard work again!
max effort for vocals at least.
:D

leadership looks beyond peer pressure.
nobody ever said it was going to be easy.

2006-11-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

today is monday.
and i blog like every monday :p

there's choir practice tomorrow.
and hopefully things go right.
or i think i might just have to kill myself,
and no more monday posts from me.

supper with keesiang,
dixon and henry last night.
there, dixon, i blogged about you! :p
and take care of your leg, salt.

many birthdays have passed,
and they haven't been mentioned.
so here's a combined-shoutout to,
vivian, zhi yi, louis and kevin (:
i love you guys, really really really!

vivian for being such a lovely classmate (:
zhi yi for buying me honey-lemon! and caring so much.
louis for adding so much joy to post-choir sessions (:
kevin for your mj stories :p have fun in the army!
<3 you guys to bits.

2006-10-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

what has been happening?
yehh, i know, kill me.
i haven't been here in awhile.

sochenda the pretty woman,
is gonna meet me ten years later.
and we're gonna write a book :D
because we're so philosophical.

sengkeat is my new disciple,
because he thinks my art is fabulous.
heh just kidding, i added that in.
but i have a new handsome disciple :D

and last but not the very least,
i've been taking for granted,
someone who's been there for me.
and this is how KEESIANG bullies me!

not forgiven, boy :D

2006-10-23T11:24:00.000+08:00

i love this sale sister (:
beyond my terrible cough,
and terrible flu,
and terrible headaches,
beyond my absence from school today.
SMILE EHHS :D

2006-10-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

i feel horrid today.

first, i didn't know I&R draft was due,
i have a terrible flu now,
and a throat that is infected,
plus a head that's heavy and throbbing.

next, i screwed up at choir.
thanks to being sick.
i feel like crap not performing well,
it was like my heart was the size of a cell.
where the hell was it, anyway?

lastly, the trip to the doctor's.
five different kinds of tablets,
and i just choked and puked.
plus an mc for monday.

it's such a bad-day.
the only one who makes me feel better,
is you <3.
thank god for you.

Lord, let your presence fall on me.

2006-10-16T15:55:00.000+08:00

i hate you, you hate me.
stop killing me.
i'll stop putting you down.
stupid haze! GO AWAY!

PSI: 127
i'm annoyed.
it's more like 451,272.
somebody save me, please.

my throat is deaded.
i hate taking medicine.
the lozenges are killing me.
DUMB HAZE.

random exclamations to go.
i pity myself for my wallet.
i need to freaking lose weight.
i haven't been in the sun for 102,328 years.

medicine, sleep, project work.

2006-10-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

THE HAZE IS BACK.
ohmygawd, go away you evil foggy thing.
you're killing my head and my throat ):
stop suffocating me, and lemme breathe.

who cares about the haze, yoooo.
choir's starting again, ooyeh baby! (:
time to step on accelerators again,
about time we work those diaphragms again (:

nehnehneepoopoo!
goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.
you've been the one, you've been the one for me.
ie, lover/friend equals promos.

and noo, i didn't eat my physics paper up.
though i thought i had an out-of-body experience,
the moment i flipped the cover page open.
please gimme a reasonable grade for physics ):

dear god,
please make my birthday wish come true.
and please make the haze go away.
amen.

(:time to party!

2006-10-08T13:43:00.000+08:00

guess what.
I found my freaking nike wallet!
new wallet new wallet ((:
<333

got my wires cut off,
cos there were excess poking me.
yes, i have ugly ulcers.
and my lips are so dry,
they're freaking swollen now.
i just wanna cry.

physics paper tomorrow.
CHOMPCHOMPCHOMP.
yess, i'll eat the paper up in front of you.

<3loves

you're the ones who forgot,
so don't call to ask for things.
it steps on my toes, gets on my nerves.
and yes, you're not welcome.

2006-10-06T10:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was much loves too!
thanks loads,
sylvia, cherie, eugan, yilin, jocelyn, joanne, jasper (:
i miss hanging out with ya'll.
thanks for the presents loves!
and the surprise cake halfway during kbox.
and for having to listen to my awful voice.
and dinner at vilage (:

screw the haze.
screw braces.
screw rubberbands.
THEY'RE KILLING ME ):
liquid diet, here i come,
again.

2006-10-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

I thank god, for the following loves especially.

keesiang (:, daphne, jiten, umairah, gloria, terry, shauna, claire, dingneng, aidross, zhi yi, valerie, yukai, jasper, michelle tay, mommy, daddy and janna!(:, sherlyn, matthias, sylvia, jeremy, charlotte, olivia, angelyn, carissa, chuanliang, yilin, iris, gideon, huptiong, joanne, fiona, huitian, shi yun, marianne, daryl, desiree, kevin, steph, avery, yu rong, desmond, hubert, choon wei, 06S23(:, michael, sean, vivian, avonne, shuyun, yuanjing, guancheng, minfeng, tina, conrad, bernie, huijun! ((:

mental note to self: i hope i didnt miss anyone out x)

bowling was a bowl of fun with the class,
and for the surprise dinner! (:
thanks loads, keesiang(:,
dingneng, valerie, juliana, lynette, hongkuang, henry, kenny, andrew and daryl.
I LOVE YA'LL(:

God bless ya'll! (:
i've never had a birthday this special.
PHOTOS UP SOON(:

2006-10-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

i hate physics.
physics, GO DIE.
i need to score full marks for mcq!
):

lemme de-stress.
i want a crumpler.
i want that nike wallet.
i want a grand piano, still.
i want to DO WELL FOR MATHS TMR.
i want a nice shoulder bag.
i want new graphic tees.
i want a denim skirt.
IGNORE ME.

happy birthday, max! (:

and dreams are scary.
let them not come true,
please.

2006-10-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

~~Physicsphysicsphysics. Do i really have to take the paper tomorrow? ):~~

Love and Your Sweetheart
Your sweetheart is like a big brother to you. He is kind and always takes good care of you. He is a dream boyfriend; gentle and compassionate, he is completely and utterly dedicated to the girl he loves. It's easy to please him because he appreciates everything you do for him. There's no need to worry about changing yourself in any way because he accepts you the way you are. When this type of man fall in love it's going to be deep and quite probably forever.

((:

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou(:

2006-09-30T11:50:00.000+08:00

love will remain a mystery,
but give me your hand,
and you will see,

your heart,
is keeping time wtih me.
<3

2006-09-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

8 more outfitter girl tees. HAAAA! x) lunch at SICC afterwards with some relatives. My stomach has no more room left for dinner.

SICC!

joel, who's constantly eating.

javier!

aden! (if that's how you spell it)

My extended family's always full of boys = terror. Heh, just kidding.

hearts.

2006-09-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY
Steamboat at marina south with ks juls daryl ding val hongkuang prem terry richard and andrew. Was a whole lot of fun! Pool after that, with the other two pairs. I still suck at it, yess.

ding&val

(:

candle on a man-tou!

there was a smiley, but it wasn't clear, so i MADE it clear :p

juls&daryl

the other table!

HAHA <3

focus is on the bald ah-pek! hahaha.

TODAY
Went to school for econs, then mrs neo's for math. On the way home from parkway there were these 3 idiotic girls. Seats are meant for you to sit on, and not for you to stand there and stare at it. AND i said it out loud while getting off the bus. Disgusting.

this is what you get for stepping on my toes.

new outfitter girl t-shirts!

then someone abandoned a hamster at the lobby, which i adopted!

Tell me she's cute ((:

Nonetheless, what a day. I'm tired from all the econs and math, AND I WANT SOMEMORE OF THOSE T-SHIRTS! Just might go back and get them tomorrow (: HEH.

ILOVEYOU(:

2006-09-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

PHOTO ENTRY

I take back whatever i said two entries back, PLEASE STOP RAINING NOW. Nonethless, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SERCHEE! ((:

the cake we savoured.

umairah, serchee, huiyuan, michelle ((:

and theres a reason why umairah and i are born on the same day! :p

I love new phones (:

2006-09-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY,
LOVES (:
three and a half months,
and counting ((:

STEAMBOAT TOMORROW!

2006-09-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

I hate the weather.

It's like it wants to rain, but it doesn't want to rain. Can't the clouds just burst, AND RAIN.

It's making me feel queasy all over. My body is aching, my head is spinning, my throat is like a desert, and my nose is just like the weather, it wants to be blocked but yet it doesn't want to be blocked.

I hate the weather. JUST RAIN, PLEASE.

2006-09-08T11:23:00.001+08:00

Dear God,

Please grant me the strength,
and lots of determination,
to study even harder.

I DON'T WANT TO RETAIN.
Love,
JILLIAN

2006-09-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

dearest claire,

((:

2006-09-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

The bunch i'll never forget
(:
Doing silly things and never feeling embarrassed.

the best people in the UNIVERSE.
Always getting on the teachers' nerves,
Disturbing the juniors even if we didn't know them,
Making a whole lot of noise wherever we went,
But i bet they loved us anyways :p

Teachers day was sucha love,
And prata opposite school.
It was like old times,
Except for the different uniforms.

I MISS 4/6 2005.
and the fourseveners
((:

<3

2006-08-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

Everytime something goes wrong,
We scavenge our lives for something to blame it on.

One minute, you're there for someone,
And the next minute you disappear and do silly things,
Not realising how many friends you're losing,
Which you could've kept if you hadn't turned away.

Everytime something goes wrong,
We try finding faults in others to make ourselves feel better.

But in doing so, that's the reason why we feel we've lost.
We feel like we've lost to others, we've lost our friends,
We've lost our own integrity, and honesty to ourselves even,
When we do what's wrong, we feel we've lost in life, literally.

Everytime something goes wrong,
We never know, but our friends were never gone.

They were always there, watching us,
Wondering why we stepped into such a foolish world,
It was like we left and drifted to the opposite bank,
And never turned to look back at our past.

Everytime something goes wrong,
We never fail to think of what went right before.

We never realised that we only needed one thing,
We only needed to find the right raft,
To hold us, and to bring us back to the right bank,
And to return to the happy times we've had before.

Everytime something goes wrong,
We never really got lost in the first place.

The minute you were there for someone,
Maybe you never realised that someone was grateful,
But when you turned away from the truth,
You thought you'd lost everything though you hadn't.

We all miss who you were before.
And the right bank is always there for you if you should turn back.

2006-08-20T14:41:00.000+08:00

My vocals have died. Yeah, kill me.

It's been a horrible week, with so much work piling. I'm just happy that math trigo, gp compre, and econs faculty test are over. Next stop, tomorrow's physics lecture test. I'm so dead, i haven't even bought my tys.

On a lighter note, i actually completed my math assignment III before-hand. Now, congratulate me. I'm finally turning into a NERD (:

And last night was my most relaxing night of the week. Thanks guys! (:

I don't know what i'll do without you (: yes you.

2006-08-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

Being happy doesn't mean everything has to be perfect.
just being yours is enough, LOVE :D
FALALALA!

2006-08-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

This so-called holiday is getting to me real bad.

I can list more cons than pros. First of all, i procrastinated my work 'till today and 'till now, all i have done is my econs essays which are due tomorrow. I still haven't completed my june holiday reading logs. Spare me the detention ):

Not to mention that on top of enough homework horror, i just got rubberbands for my braces today, and they hurt REAL BAD. Plus, i have to change them twice a day, which makes that doubly painful. Kill me now if you please. Looks like it's another phase of liquid diet.

But it's good, in a sense. I hope i lose weight. and i miss you ten thousand times over.

2006-08-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

I've been having nightmares since monday.
Everytime i close my eyes to sleep,
I always end up screaming or crying.
I dare not close my eyes again, i fear.

Responsibilities i'm expected to handle.
No doubt i did have a nightmare about it,
It scared me so i ran away, literally.
But nothing's gonna get in my way.

We haven't been spending much time,
Nor even talking much, for awhile now.
But as much as this silence seems empty,
I want you to know even if we don't say.
i'm the greatest fan of your life, love (:

2006-07-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

I'll never feel like i've made it. That's because i never did, and i never will. I admit i imagined the possibilities if i had worked hard enough. What ever happened to realising dreams?

Never reach too high.

Do what you can and be satisfied where you land up. But once you've set yourself goals that are too out of reach, you'll never be satisfied no matter how you try to make yourself do so.

I won't ever be a part of this dream.

I've lost practically hope for alot of things, all because of this one time i set my dreams high above the clouds, never realising they were that high up, until they came crashing down.

It's like they crowned me world's biggest loser.

I know it's not that bad, maybe it never was this bad. But i've lost a chance, that maybe i had never deserved in the first place because there were better candidates. In fact it's no longer a there were. It's a matter of there are.

When am i ever gonna give up, when she's already beaten me to it?

2006-07-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

~~I'm giving myself unnecessary pressure.~~

Expectations i set for myself seem to be exceedingly high, and they keep seeming to drift further and further away from reach. They aren't goals any longer, they're standards i feel i ought to have met.

Just that, there isn't any encouragement to feel like i've met them.

It's not about self-motivation, and working hard. I know i'll continue to put in the best i can. But knowing i've already lost half the battle, makes me feel less of inspiration to pull thru, when i'm not in the lead. Perhaps i never was, to begin with.

I'm pooped.

I'm getting more and more tired each day, and i don't know why. It's not as though any strenuous physical activity's been a regular, to tire me out.

Kill me, before i kill myself.

2006-07-27T17:59:00.000+08:00

a random upload;

JOANNE, LOVES (:
Sometimes things aren't as bad as we perceive them to be.

Sometimes, somewhere out there there's another opportunity that awaits us. It's a matter of whether we have the patience to hang on or not.

Shouldering responsibility for ourselves, is the only way we'll get to the top, without having to crawl, but braving the countless hurdles.

Lemme conquer! Econs, physics, ave maria. My thoughts are everywhere.

2006-07-25T19:08:00.000+08:00

I've been making numerous visits to the toilet. And i don't know what to do because i don't have an mc.

I've been thinking. Would things have been different if i'd gone to cjc and forgone my dsa, instead?

Rewrite my story. Change my lines. Change my role. ~~Let me play lead.~~

I'm stuck on the inside, and as it is, i think i'm beginning to stone more than i ever did stone, it's scary.

Expectations aren't just black and white.

Sometimes i think so much about how i've lost, i find myself fighting back my tears so i won't cry.

What a super-random entry.

2006-07-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

Success comes with hard work.

But the reverse doesn't always hold true, hard work doesn't always guarantee us the success we've always longed for.

All i can do is sit and watch.

All while coming to terms with the talent that was never mine in the first place.

--

notanyother(:

2006-07-23T13:48:00.000+08:00

CHORALFESTISOVER. Ahh, i miss it already.

Time to get our butts down to serious business. Studies. Choir. I just hope we'll all do well working together (: AVE MARIA, here i come!

--

Aim to be the best you can, only then will you succeed.

Being the best isn't everything, that's true. But knowing that you can't be what you want to be, because someone else has already beaten you to it, SUCKS.

I feel like i'm not living up to my own expectations, and it's too late to amend.

2006-07-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

I watched High School Musical in parts on youtube (: YEYY!

A'level mother tongue orals have been screwed so bad, i'm gonna have to score full marks for my written paper. And to add on to the depression, mr chew says our 2.4km run is during spe, which means we have to run tomorrow! Hopefully by some tweak in weather or anything, it'll be postponed or something. Please, my heart is weak, please don't make me run tomorrow. PLEASE RAIN.

I've been eating burgerking's kids' meals just to collect the different spongebobs. PLEASE HELP ME (:

myFAIRYTALEcometrue(:

2006-07-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

Omg, that song is so old.
youmademyday,DANIELLE(:
You're making me miss 4/6!
NOW I WANT TO CRY.
GIMME TISSUE PAPER QUICK!
<3

2006-07-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

iwanteverydaytobelikeystd,
becauseofYOU.
nowidontknowwhatishlddo,
cositsyouicantlivewithout.

2006-07-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, PHOTO ENTRY! (:

Steamboat at marina bay for dinner! (:

THANKS FOR THE HONEYLEMON, SALT (:
-- on our way there

After dinner, Zhiyi and i found amusement!

Some fishing thinger game.

YEY. RETARDS.

Then we started camwhoring with kenny's cam.

And ssk joined in.

SSK! (:

Then we tried to act cute.

Anyways here's what happened at school before that. Haaa.

Vivian's so happy about break.

YILIN (:

Umairah and i got bored during PW.

GUESS WHO! :D You're so dead.

Sylvia jocelyn and cherie came back too. MISS THEM LOVES.

explaintomewhytheworldisround.

2006-07-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

Finally a full day of school today. I feel like school's some foreign land ever since the holidays started. It's like they never ended 'till today. YuRong and i had fun drawing the flags of different countries today (: chinese lessons were cancelled so we had two extra free periods.

Went to tm with zhiyi and huijun. They're both so cute! HEH. Then just as i thought of juls, we met her ((: along with darling amie and justin. Aaahh, i miss them already.

I want so many things! I want that huge adidas bag, blackandgold adidas jacket, pony/levi's sneakers, outfitter bag etc. And as the list goes on, i'll never have enough cash! ):

everythingsumsuptoonething,EXPECTATIONS.icantlivewithit.

2006-07-05T12:43:00.000+08:00

TPJC Panorama -- Life in Colour.

'Twas actually not bad, though we were dreading most of the practices (: on the other hand, i'm gonna miss the year twos. I told mr tan he was taking part of my life away, by letting them go.

Juliana, daryl, hazel, charlene, olivia, amie, adeline, christopher, justin, kenny, guancheng, dingneng, chinsoon, richard, sherlyn, winnie, cheekian, hongkuang, lynette, fabian, faisal, baozhu, ks and whoever i've accidentally missed out (:

<3YA'LL!

There are some things in life worth remember, worth treasuring, and worth keeping. But others, they're not worth your pondering over, not spending just an extra milisecond on it.

Day after day i find out something new, so much so i'm starting to ___e you.

2006-06-27T13:32:00.000+08:00

Choir later at 4pm. WHEE.

Anyways, i found this on youtube and i think it's ~~sodamn~~CUTE. Rawrr, i hardly ever do this kinda posts, here's kittens' first steps (: makes me wanna have kittens too!

youdontknowit,butyouvebeenthere.

2006-06-26T15:10:00.000+08:00

~~I screwed up my math paper. Failfailfail. But that really isn't something i want to remember.~~ I know i'm weird, but i'm going to start studying for geog lecture test later.

;;

GER tagged, rawr.

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1, I eat my hashbrowns with hotcakes syrup at macs!
2, I stare at my face in the mirror occasionally, and smile to myself.
3, I used to wear t-shirt and fbt's to town. I know everyone thought i was weird, then.
4, I LISTEN TO CHINESE SONGS. Weird enough.
5, I like standing in a bus or mrt, it beats sitting the whole ride and getting your butt numb.
6, I like doing homework. Yes, i know i'll implode some day.

Tagg! your turn! x))
DARYL AMIE SOCHENDA VALERIE KENNY.
-- That's because I assume you guys will be reading this(: HEH!

2006-06-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

I miss having choir practices everyday.
I miss having to wake up at 8, worrying about kenny fining us.
I miss flipping thru scores before practice, singing in the toilet.
I miss sectionals where we worked out blends and tones.
I miss sitting on the bench in siglap, stupidly in the sun.
I miss spending 10 minutes trying to decide on a place to eat.
I miss planning with val what to wear to choir practice.
I miss mr kwei's way with our choir no matter what.
I miss training to hit the high notes as best as we could.
I miss freezing in the hall even with a jacket on.
I miss folding paper frogs and naming them, with joanne.
I miss charlene's weird antics while singing a-yoh in sinten.
I miss listening to henry's ipod together with him.
I miss credo, nigra sum, ave verum, usuli, wakwakgung, etc.
I miss drinking honey water that i brought everyday.
I miss juliana's come let's take picture!
I miss the hand-thingerr that mr low taught us at singing.
I miss going out after every choir practice with you.
I miss everything that happened the past holidays.
I miss everyone that made practices so enjoyable.
I miss our concert, and our competition in czech republic.

* I MISS CHOIR.

2006-06-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

Time will heal what reasons cannot.
let me dream again.

2006-06-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

My belly button is itchy. So no sense. x)

It feels as though the clock's stopped ticking and everything around me is moving so slowly. Ritardando. I feel like i don't understand anything anymore.

That keeps me wondering. Have i understood anything at all, in the first place?

Common tests first. Gambate, everyone! (:

2006-06-19T14:59:00.000+08:00

It's monday already.

The hols've been occupied by choir practices and whatnot, the whole vacation's coming to an end soon. But it's been a good holiday (: definitely has been. Productive, memorable, fun. No one could possibly ask for more.

We had our fair shares of ups and downs preparing for events. Plaisir de chanson, our competition in olomouc, and now the panorama. Singing, late night suppers, or just lazing around to blabber gibberish.

<3

It's where the passion lies.

Happy birthday, Eunice and Jeremy! (: